sur-reality

it is going to take a while to let it all sink in – that we are actually FREE to go where we want, WHEN we want.  the first cruise of the season was to reedville as tom had some stuff to do over there.  it was kind of anti-climactic  because i was just so tired and burnt out from two weeks on the hard, then cleaning, plus my job, and on top of that, working on my days off because there was so much work and they needed backup!  at the same time, we had put off celebrating tom’s retirement because we were still at the boatyard, painting, and i was kind of feeling guilty that we hadn’t done ANYTHING special at all for it.   the timing was incredibly bad.  this cruise was supposed to be a celebration of spring and tom’s retirement and our freedom and all i could think about was how unprepared i was for any kind of extended cruising!  the fact is that i was trying to squeeze a normal (for me) work day into all of that celebration, tired to begin with, and then to not have a reliable internet signal which is essential to my work,  i was extremely stressed out and it put a damper on everything.  i put up with two days of iffy internet before i lost it and it took me a while to recover from that even after we had picked up and and moved to little bay.  stress does not simply go away even when whatever was broken is fixed.  and with the beginning of the cruising season, after sitting for a few months, one really needs to ease into it gradually.  i can’t say how many times we said, oops we forgot this or we forgot that  - things that one didn’t even think about at the end of the season because they had become automatic.  basically, the main problem was that tom wanted to go go go and me, i wanted to start with a clean and organized boat before we finally got going.  tom’s and my threshold for “clean and organized boat” are at two distinct levels and after two weeks of the “limited ability to wash” scenario, i wasn’t thrilled about being separated so soon from the tap.  however, it was really the iffy internet on a working monday and then tuesday that did me in, i.e. YOU may be on vacation but i am NOT.  in retrospect, maybe i should have taken the time off, which i really can’t afford.  better yet, we should have waited to leave on a friday rather than sunday (i work on Sundays).  in any case, after a night at lovely little bay, one of our favorite anchorages, we decided to go back to our slip in deltaville, do what needed to be done, re-provision and start all over again on friday and head to tangier island to see milton parks who just had a pacemaker placement and scared the heck out of all of us.  so much for wherever we want, whenever we want.  we will get it eventually. we are (i am) allowed to be ungraceful in the beginning.  

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sunrise at little bay